Sunday, October 10, 2010

Transition or Transformation?

Well I know I have neglected my blog for quite some time. There is no good reason for this because this was very important to me, but my reason is that I have been going through a huge transition or maybe its a transformation. Let's see...3 months ago, I gave the decision to move to a different country and since then have been on an emotional roller coaster with happiness, sadness, confusion, doubt and every other humanly feeling thats possible passing through me like electrical waves, changing my mindset almost every minute...lets just say it was a good experience. So I did survive all that and finally moved in early October to Istanbul, Turkey. Mmmm not sure if I feel comfortable with the truth of this, but it has happened already! But now that it has happened I can't stop thinking of the tranisiton I went through during the packing, moving, and saying all sorts of good-bye's, see ya later's and the like...I have been trying to transition the moving experience into a positive experience although I've hated most of it. (of course any of you who have ever moved to another city or even to another country know what I mean). But I've questioned myself, as always, to create more learning experiences from all the actions I've been taking.
So, is this a transition or a transformation? Well, the dictionary explains transition as: movement, passage, or change from one position, state, stage, subject, concept, etc., to another; change. And transform as: to change in condition, nature, or character; convert.
In this case, I have been in a transition but with lingering transformation. I say this because in the past few years I have been going through transformations which has lead me to this transition and brave decision to change almost everything in my life. Well, not everything, but many things because I had been reading a lot and learning a lot and craving all sorts of positive changes as the world to me is not changing in the most positive way right now. So I decided to make the change within myself and share my energy with as many other souls as possible. Why Turkey? I can't answer that yet, I hope to get a good answer soon...
Anyway, the point is that I am realizing that it is very important and natural to go through these emotions and changes in life because it helps us understand and become the person we naturally are:) And guess what else, there is no age, time, location limit in which these changes can happen so be prepared and open your heart and mind to change because although it can be rough at times, it really is beautiful in the end!
A note/quote of the month:
"What we see or what we make publically available may not be as they seem, as a consequence of the positioning and contrapositioning of the unseen lying withing the whole.  Understanding what is seen rests, in all its simplicity or complexity, within the individual himself or herself. "

Ani Celik Arevyan, 2010, Photography exhibition at the Istanbul Modern Art Museum

"Is this art? What is art is questionable to me." Hüseyin Çağlayan - Fashion Designer/Artist